You know how some people say "She doesn't have a mean bone in her body"? No one has ever said that about me. Ever. I used to wish I could be that kind of person. I thought maybe it was something that came with being a "big girl"...I'd be the person folks said had no mean bone.
I think I've outgrown those expectations. Sort of.
Except the mean thing. I can't stand the idea that anyone thinks I'm mean.
I can deal with all that stuff...those are all passive attributes. But mean? Hateful? Those are active feelings. I have too many other crazy thoughts in my brain to be consciously spiteful. There's a whole lotta thoughts.